I glance to my left and then to my right, but no one is there.
As I arch my back against time, I sense that I am alone.
You vanished from my life and my sight, but I can still feel you around me.
Can you hear me? Do you know what I am thinking? Will I ever see you again?
There are no answers given to these questions, only more questions to ask, It's as if someone has played a cruel joke on me.
Not having you here, by my side, on the other end of the phone, I am left without you.
Without the one person I would die for, breathe for, live for and everything in between.

It's simply unfair,
So very unfair that I have to continue in this world without you, that the trees still grow leaves, the flowers still bloom, that life continues.
There is nothing else for me to do, but continue to move, continue to live, continue…….

I felt you last night, in my dreams, in my arms, in my mind.
You were glowing, with a smile on your face and anticipation in your eyes.
You said Yes to me, when I asked you to stay and we both knew that it was all there was, All there was at that moment was You, and I.
I could've let go of life and continue with you, along your path, down your road, but I didn't, it didn't happen and I am still here, waiting, wondering, grieving…..

I don't know what else to do, What else is there for me to do?
Cry myself to sleep at night?
It is easy to do, easy to miss you.

I do, I do miss you, and everything in between. Everything, and yet I'd do it all over again, and again.

Copyright © 2003 Ritha Ramos. All rights reserved.

About the author: Freelance writer who lives in Los Angeles. Met my best friend and love of my life in 1993 and lost him in 2000 from a stroke.