The day we got that call I really didn't think
you'd die I must say
For we were just making plans
For what was to be your Christmas wedding day
What has been two years
Has seemed much longer to me
Now you're in our hearts
Its how it has to be

You were taken away from me at such a young age
I guess you could say
You were released from your cage
Everybody always says I feel your pain
But they don't

It's like clothes
They are perfect until they get stained
Yes our mother misses you
I hear her cries throughout the night
But I understand that kind of pain
For me its just the same

I always wish I could have been there for you
To help you safely out of the car
Shoot, I would rather you be behind prison bars
Than not here at all

But because of you
I know that there will be a day
That I will finally get to see you
And see that smile on your face

You brought us to God
You showed us the way
You let us know his word
You were always brave

I was always jealousCause you were beautiful and smart
But I was always happy cause you were my sister
From the start

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you
And how things didn't have to go wrong
Now I'm always wondering what to do

The world can take away my belongings, everything I have,
He can take away my life
But he will never take away the love
And special relationship that we had

I would give anything to go back and change that day
I would give anything to have told you that I love you
Before you went to another place
A place more perfect than earth
A place more safe and warm

But at the same time that you are in heaven
You are in my heart for sure
I'm just waiting one day
To wake up from this bad dream
But the scary thing is I'm not dreaming

My biggest wish is that I could have been there to let you know
How much I really love you
But now it's too late

If I could talk to everybody in the world
I'd let them know
To be careful for what they ask for
Be careful of what they say
Because you never know when
someone you love becomes an angel…
For me December 1st was that day

I love you Jill

Love always, Jessy
 
Written For My Big Sister By: Jessy Campbell
Nov.29,2001

Comments (2)

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written by millie, March 10, 2008

My big sis was my best friend , she will be gone 3 yrs come september ,and i dont believe it has got any easier . I didnt get to tell her how much I loved her or how much she meant to me .I will forever miss her.Your poem hits home ,I know how you feel,please know how deeply sorry I am for your loss.

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written by faryah, April 01, 2008

my sister killed herself on march the 8th and she turnd 20 two days earlier...
i am finding it way hard.... and your poem will help me deal..