I Miss Mom E-mail

I seen you go.
I wanted you to stay. But you went anyway. I miss your voice.
I miss your hugs.
I even miss the way you scolded me.
I miss your kisses.
I miss your love.
I didn't nearly have enough.

You were only 43 the day you died.
You left and it made everyone cry.
Now I don't have anyone to turn to or rely on.
Please tell me
Why did you have to leave me.

Copyright: 2002 by Cassondra Messer
About Author: I lost my mom on December 17th, 1999, from a massive heart attack. She was 43 years old. It came upon us by total suprise. I am 20 years old. I live in Iowa. I am a cook at a nursing home.

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written by gloria elliott, October 30, 2007
HI!im 31 i lost my father in 1997 he also had a massive heart attack iwas 21 and i just lost my mother to a lengthy bought with cancerso im feeling very ALONE
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written by Zofia, November 20, 2007
My father died when I was 2, my mother died a few weeks ago. I have no brothers or sisters and feel alone too. The love, care and friendship of my mother can never be replaced. Not sure what I will do without her sweet voice.
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written by Rayche, December 05, 2007
My mother was only 65 when she died on July 30, 2007. Her death was unexpected because we thought she would bounce back from whatever ailment she was having. It's been a long hard journey for me and my family, my siblings and their families. It's our first Holidays without her, our 4th year without our dad, he died on June 5, 2003. Sometimes I feel very alone, too and have a hard time accepting that she's gone. It was too fast, one minute here and gone the next. I feel your pain..........
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written by TYNIESHASPEARS, December 07, 2007
I LOST MY MOTHER WHEN I WAS 12YEARSOLD SHE DIED FROM A LIVER PROBLEM I HAS NOT AROUND MY MOTHER WHEN SHE DIED BUT I REALLY WISH THAT I WOULD OF BEEN AROUND AND I WAS VERY DISAPPOINTED THAT I DID GET TO SAY GOOD BYE TO MY LOVINGMOTHER BUT I WANT TO GO IN MY SLEEP LIKE MY MOTHER DID
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written by Bettie Wood, December 19, 2007
I lost my mom 2/3/07 to kidney failure. We were together all the time. She would have been 82 years old on 2/6/07. I have a hole in my heart and I feel so alone all the time and feel I have no one to talk to. My dad died 7/31/87, so my mom was with me most of the time. I am having an especially hard time during the holidays. The last time she was at my house was Thanksgiving Day of 2006. She had to be in a nursing home in February 2006, because she almost died on 2/13/06. From there she went down. My life has been turned upside down and I grieve all the time for her. Thanks for listening!
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written by julie houssein, December 29, 2007
Im 38yrs old , my mum died 3rd april 2007 while liveing in spain with my dad ,she woke early saying that she felt sick ,so when my dad went to the chemist for her ,when he came back he found my mum had passed away in bed he had only been gone 20mins.
she was only 62yrs old she hadnt been ill it was a total shock ,the worst thing is i hadnt spoke to her for 6months we had a arguement over something silly ,
I miss her so much it hurts i no im a grown woman but all i want is to cuddle her 1 last time,most days the tears just keep streaming i do this in private i play the dean martin (volare) song a lot i fill i have to keep hurting.Is any one else like this or am i feeling sorry for myself . I just want her back
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written by Bertha Smith, January 06, 2008
MY Mom died Nov,26,2007 she was 77.I miss he so much! I cry for her,for me,for all my brothers & sisters and especially my Dad"he's 86",she was his whole world& mine too!how do I do this?there isn't a book on how to deal with this or @ least I haven't seen one.I do know that i'm not the only person who has losed their Mom but to me I feel that way.I do not wish this on anybody,I hurt so much.I have never felt this way,always before I could call her with my problems,and as soon as I heard her voice I felt better.Now who do I call???
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written by Ivy Falls, January 09, 2008
You it's not the end. My mom die 4 years ago it was sad but i know i'll see her again some day.
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written by Ann, January 15, 2008
I lost my Mom on December 20, 2007. I was there with her, and she passed out. I tried to get her to come to, she was breathing really hard, and then she quit. I called 911 and they talked me through giving her CPR until the ambulance came. They rushed her to the hospital, but she never came back. They said it was sudden cardiac death. She was my best friend, and I know what all of you are going through. I just keep reliving those last few minutes over and over again, and feel such guilt that there should've been something else I could've done - that I failed her somehow. I just feel really alone and lost right now.
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written by Saba Ahmad, February 04, 2008
i m from india, lost the most precious possession that i had or will ever have on jan 15th 2008 yes i m on the same boat as you people, my world has gone dark with my Amma breathing her last bfore my own sinful eyes n i just stood helplesly crying n yelling out her name & for the ambulance on phone alternatively bt she wnt bfore the dr. arrvd. my God how can anyone live without Amma?how cd she leave ME like this wen she knew i hv always fallen ill whenevr separted for few days even?i dont want 2 take another breath without her, i jst dont...thnx all o u for being there to listn n understand not everyone does...
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written by jenda, February 17, 2008
i lost my mum 2005 and my dad december 2007the loss of my dad is unbearable as i had only known him six years he lived with me for five years is there anyone out there in the same situation ?
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written by erin, March 05, 2008
I too lost me Mom when she was 43 of lung cancer , I was 24. That was 3-1/2 years ago. 4 months prior to that I lost my step Dad to Congestive heart failure. I ask why all the time and still have no answers. I had a dream recently that my dog was lying beside me and placed his paw underneath my head and took his other paw and started to stroke my forhead. Then my dog turned into my step Dad and kept telling me everything was ok.. so I get out of bed (still in my dream) and the is a large hog at the foot of my bed and I didnt know what to do so I bent down and tried to pet it, as I did the hog turned into my Mother who pointed at my little sister room (telling me to get her). So I did and as we walked twords her she outstretched her arms and we held on so tight she disappeared in our arms. I woke up and she was gone but I had this wonderful peaceful feeling inside and I felt as if they had really been there....I usually dont believe in strange happenings like this so IU looked on line to find the meaning of a dog and a hog in dreams only to find out dogs represent father figures and hogs/pigs represent mothers. I know feel like I was touched my parnents angels.
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written by Maryelaine, March 16, 2008
My mother died suddenly on Jan 2, 2008. She was 88 and was my best friend in the world. I am 62 and wondering "who am I now?" without her. I find myself talking to her in my head whenever I see something I know both of us would like--a beautiful flower, a new bird in the garden. What money she left me I tithed to the things she loved the most--that helped. I am an older griever, but this is still too hard. I'm crying as I plant 'our' flowers, feed 'our' birds, sing 'our' songs. I am literally sick and stumble to get through each day.....one day at a time.
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written by tamara, March 27, 2008
i lost my dad in Oct 2007, then my mom march 14, 2006 they were both young 61, 68 yrs old, I miss them soooo much, I have alot more issues, but I wonder will I ever get thru this???? Pleas help
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written by Shyann Johnson, March 29, 2008
My mother died when i was an little girl and i miss her alot. when i wake in the moroning i just cry myself back to sleep. so i understand what little babies going though.
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written by Lula, March 30, 2008
I lost Mami the end of November 2007. She was 84 and had Alzheimers and cancer. I had been losing her bit by bit for the past 10 years. I was the her main caregiver for the past six years and all I can say is it was the hardest time of my life. I am almost 52 now and gave up a lot to care for her. But I don't regret a day of it. I'm slowly putting the pieces back together again. I miss her more than anything and think of her all the time. Her smile and laughter lit up my world. Sometimes it's a struggle to smile. The other night I dreamed of her stroking my hair as I slept.
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written by Tessa, May 07, 2008
I lost my mom on the 31st of march 2008. She died peacefully in her sleep and she was only 58.This year would have been their 40th wedding anniversary but she had been called to rest by our heavenly father. Not a day goes by without me shedding a tear as I miss her terribly especially this week on mothers day. Nothing will ever be the same at home, my whole world has been shattered and Iam not sure if I will get thru a day without her. I have been with her for over 30 years and not a day goes by that I talk to her. How do I go on each day.. all I see when I close my eyes is my dearest mommy
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written by Disa Etter, May 13, 2008
I lost my mom on Jan 13th 2008. She died at 11:05 that morning from a massive heart attack. I too feel lost and sad. My mother was the dearest, kindness and most thoughtful person. She was not only my mother, but she was my very BEST friend. Some days I am okay, but most days I still cry. I miss calling her and spending my days off doing things with her. There are days I thank God for taking her to Heaven and days I just hate him for taking her away. I am 43 and my Mom would have been 69 in August. I just wanted to share, because I know I am not alone in the pain I feel.
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written by missing my mommy, May 15, 2008
SO SO SAD~ I Lost my mother in 2004, she was in a terrible accident! She was only 45yrs old. I was 20yrs, I have a little brother who was 9 yrs and a little sister who was 6yrs. It has been 4yrs since this happened but she was my best friend! I took myself to councling, but nothing seems to help me cope. I greeve at times like it just happned. I know I will be hurt forever about loosing her, but its really hard on me, my husband and my 3yr old son ( who was born after my mothers death). I cant accept that she is gone, it's still so difficult for me!! I can't go a minute without thinking of her. I at times feel selfish to feel the way I do, I got to spend 20yrs with her and my brother and sister didn't even get half the time I had to spend with her! She was such a beautiful woman, caring , always had a smile and would help anyone in need! I miss her so much! What can I do to help myself< I just know I can be a happier person to be around!!
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written by Sheila, May 29, 2008
I lost my mother 2/22/08 at her young age of only 62, on my husbands birthday. I am the one who made the decission to take her off the vent. I am an only child and can't get over the fact that I was the one to give up on her first. I told no one, I didn't want to see her suffer any longer, but I failed her. I planned her funeral alone, I attended her last service all alone, I am now forever all alone. I can't forgive myself. I am blessed with three girls, all remind me of my mother, my best and only friend. We talked everyday, four times a day. she knew me as no other, she loved me as no other. We were going to grow old together with only 16 year apart in age. I wanted to laugh with her, cry with her and now there's no one on this earth who can take her place. I have such grief that I can't share and there's really no one on this earth who cares to listen to me. I cry alone always without my friend. I hear her words in my ears daily. At times I die inside. I want to be happy, I want to stop crying and feeling sorry for myself. How can I stop all this grief?
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written by Deborah Berry, June 03, 2008
God In Heaven Above Please Help Us All We have lost our best friend the only one who loved us at all times. Heavenly Father our tears are over flowing help us as we grieve the lost of our best friend "MOM" Jan. 13, 1937 - Feb. 21, 2008 , If we could turn back time. The pain has taken over me and I can not go on. MOM I LOVE YOU. Your Daughter Debbie
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written by elizabeth, June 06, 2008
im 27 and i lost my mum on the 6.8.2007 from breast cancer and i miss her more than words can say it does not matter how old u are the pain is still the same.XXXX
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written by Ronnie, June 15, 2008
Hey Saba Ahmad. So sorry to hear of your loss. My mother died this exact day as well
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written by vicky, July 11, 2008
my mom died april 2007.
i still feel as though it was yesterday.
i heard the words "mom is dead" and my world changed.
as i cry let out from the pitt of my stomach . a cry so hard the world can hear.
pain so strong the world can't feel .
as i wake to see my life anew .
a struggle each day feeling her strength in mine.
wishing that just for a second i can hear her voice.
telling me 'i love you' one last time.
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written by Linda Reuther, August 12, 2008
My Mom died unexpectedly on June 20, 2008. I have the same problems many of you have express already. I'm not sure if anyone out there has any advice for helping me with this situation, but here goes: I keep reliving the last 6 days of her life, it never goes away. I have to take medication for sleep and anxiety, neither keeps me from reliving those days. Does anyone have any suggestions? I know I have to go thru the grieving process but this is the worse part of my grief. I also know that Mom is with the Lord and in a much better place....and she is no longer suffering. My brain just doesn't seem to want to wrap itself around the idea that she is gone. Thanks for listening....hope someone has a suggestion.
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written by Linda Reuther, August 12, 2008
My Mom died June 20, 2008. Her death was quite unexpectedly and is the most devastating event in my life (I am 60 years old). I have been experiencing most of the same feelings others have mention. I still cry almost daily.....some days are worse than others. I never got the chance to say goodbye and that hurts greatly. My biggest problem is that I keep reliving the last 6 days of her life (she was hospitalized). I never dreamed in a millions years that she would die. Now a great deal of my time is spent rehashing everything that happened. Mom was my best friend....she was 78 years old. If anyone has any suggestions as to what I need to do to quit reliving all this, please contact me.....I welcome any and all suggestions. I know the grieving process takes time and is different for everyone, but I think I would go thru the process better if I can erase the events and images of those 6 days. My brain just doesn't seem to be able to wrap itself around the fact that Mom is gone. Thanks for listening.

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