WHY ARE U GONE??

As I lay here all alone at night,

I close my eyes and you're insight.

The pain I'm feeling is so strong,

With me, at home is where you belong.

I wish I could turn back the time,

You not being here, should be a crime.

All of these emotions I feel inside,

I smile, but all i want to do is hide.

To just run away from all of this,

Wishing to give you one last kiss.

This is so much harder than I thought,

Why are you gone?, Thinking it's my fault.

Time will have to take its course,

Not being home with you,I remorse.

I want you here, home, with me forever,

To carry you when you got heavier.

Wanting so badly to hold you in my arms,

You impressed everyone with your charms.

Your smile, your laugh and your cry,

Is why, it's so hard to say good bye.

Waking and not seeing your perfect little face,

You are so special and can't ever be replaced.

My handsome angel sent from heaven,

I'm lost without, my heart is craven.

Praying to one day see you again,

To play and dance with you, in our den.

Thinking of you and often speaking your name,

All I have are memories and pictures in a frame.

You are in a place of light & love,

The perfect garden in Gods sky above.

Not getting to say good bye is the worst part,

But you will ALWAYS and FOREVER be in my heart!

If tomorrow you should wake to find,

that the lord has called me home.

If tonight I heard him calling me,

and you were left to carry on.

Take faith in all the love we shared,

for our hearts had beat as one.

Listen to the song inside,

of the broken heart, that must live on.

For you are still apart of me,

and I apart of you.

And it's the love we shared in life.

that lights the way to see you through.

For life is just a passing thought,

a moment in God's plan.

But we all must take the journey home,

when guided by God's hand.

And when we meet on the other side,

all storm clouds rolled away.

Our souls shall walk in the perfect light,

of God's eternal day.

With morning light, I dry my eye's and slowly push the pain inside. I'll keep it in a hidden place, where they can't see it on my face.

A brand new day get on with life. I'm still a mother, still a wife. Crawl out of bed put on the smile. if only for a little while.

When people ask me how I feel, Oh I'm just fine and how are you? They'll never know it isn't true. I keep the sorrow locked away, so they'll believe the words I say.

I hear them say that I'm so strong, but deep inside I know thier wrong. For breathing seems sometimes a task. It's getting hard to wear this mask.

This mask that hides the pain inside, I put it on the night you died. It hides the agony of living on, after one of your childrens gone.

They say that time can heal all wounds, but I know that this can't be. For there's not enough time that can go by, to free me from this misery.

And late at night when it's just me. I slip off my mask and set my tears free. For from myself this pain I can't hide, it's always there, it's always inside.