Blog entries for MamaBren

Don't know what to do.

MamaBren

What more can we do.

My brother has been sick for years now you see,

Dont no what to do or who to believe.

People tell me that it takes sometime,

but what they dont know, is were wachin him die

I do what i can.

Thats cook him some food.

My mom washes his clothes,

and he gets so rude.

Everyone askes me,

How is he doin.

I look at them and say he has been ruine [...]

losing a brother

MamaBren

i lost my brother to cancer 2 years ago,he left behind a wife and 4 small children he was only 53. i miss him but he was in so much pain .i believe he is in heaven now looking down and he is healthy and happy.

My daughter

MamaBren

Ana-Alicai ran away on 9/14/07, the day after her 17th birthday. She is a beautiful, smart, loving girl. She is also an addict. How did this happen? I blame myself. After I divorced her father she and her sibligns were never the same. Yes, I left an absive marriage, but I damaged my children in the process. I was so broken at that time, I didn't see their pain.

She is gone, has not been heard from or seen since, took to bus t [...]

Don't Cry for Me

MamaBren

Don't Cry for Me Please I am asking that you do not cry, for I only went home to meet Jesus in the sky. I have a mansion, a crown, and a beautiful white robe, and what a glory it is to walk on streets paved of gold. Now to my mother and father and husband my children need your love hold them by there tiny hands and give them a hug. Embrace them with your love and show them how to remember me, because I will be up above watching you, seeing your love. Now when times get hard and y [...]

Harder everyday.

MamaBren

It has almost been a month since I lost Dan. August 21st, 2007 will always be remembered as the worst day of my life. Dan is the love of my life, we were together for almost 3 years, and had so many plans for our future. He had struggled most of his life, and finding his place always seemed to be hard for him. However, he had finally gotten to his happy place. This year had been really tough on our relationship, we were tested to the fullest, but we made it out happier and stronger than ever. Da [...]

Loss of a friend . lover and soul mate

MamaBren

i lost my best friend on august 5th 2007

Prayer For A Sister on Loss Of Beloved Daughter

MamaBren

Dear Jesus, Please give Carol your chosen child comfort this day. It is so hard when you lose your child. Restore her for your glory and love. Also keep Janell sisters and brothers close to their mom.

Empty life

MamaBren

Every day I wait to see if this day I will return to the world around me. I see my granddaughters almost every day. They are the reason I am still going on. I am living every parents worst nightmare and I will never wake up from it. Almost every day I am also told by well meaning friends and family that I have to "stay strong" or some other similar remark. I want to scream and let everyone know that I am not strong. A huge part of me feels as if it al [...]

faith

MamaBren

my darling baby girl

so precious yet so small

left me in 13 days to excat

i remember the moring i awoke to your life less body and relized that your world has ended and so has mine. it was suppose to be different on mothers day, you were suppose to awake and be in my arms not the other way around. i was suppose to give you your morning feeding and a bath and your little sister was going to smother you in kisses like she usually does, but not today you are rushe [...]

Sadness

MamaBren

My days are filled with so much sadness, I'm really trying, but people just don't get it, there's no "just move on" it's my life that was ripped apart, and no one gets it. Its been two years since we were in that dreadful place, that hospital, the one we arrived at together but only one of us left alone.

All Around Me

MamaBren

I am the clouds, fluffy and white.

I am the stars that shine at night.

I am the gently rolling hills.

I am the cure when you are ill.

I am the scent of ocean breeze.

I will put your life at ease.

I am the fire to keep you warm.

I am the calm after a storm.

I am the little puppy next door.

I will love you forever more.

I am not really gone you see.

You are never alone, a [...]

the biggest crime i comited against myself

MamaBren

since i heard my father had died.i knew i ll always have to be ready for the worst.ready for a big negative change in my life.ready,to miss happiness for ever.but i never thought it would be so brutal.that s why i pretended to be indifferent.i dried my tears,drew a fake smile over my face...

i went to college,oblivious of all the ghosts around me.these ghosts were the threats that promised a black bleak life.college life was so bright that it made me believe that there s still a hop [...]

PLEASE TAKE A MIN. TO READ (R.I.P)

MamaBren

THIS STORY WAS WRITTEN IN AUGUST 2006 FOR A DEAR FRIEND WHO WAS TRAGICALLY TAKEN FROM THOSE WHO KNEW AND LOVED HIM MOST. HE WAS A GREAT FATHER HUSBAND AND MY BEST FRIEND.

I DONT KNOW WHY THINGS HAPPEN AND FOR WHAT REASON. BUT I KNOW THAT HIS MEMORY WILL GO ON FOREVER AND NEVER DIE.

FOR ANYONE WHO READS THIS I WANT YOU TO PLEASE SEND A PRAYER UP TO GOD FOR HIS FAMILY AND FRIEDS AND FOR ALL WHO KNEW HIM AND LOVED HIM.

YOU MAY NOT KNOW HIM BUT I HOPE THIS STORY BR [...]

Why my mom? I'm just 14.

MamaBren

If asked why my mom was the most incredible person in the world, I would not be capable of describing that in words. She was all too amazing. My mother was beautiful, intelligent, and was allergic to boredom. When she was alive, there wasn't a single morning that went by where drops of dew did not form on a new leaf. There wasn't an afternoon when the sun didn't shine. No evening prevailed with a sunset sky not streaked with brilliant oranges, pinks, and yellows. Not one night went [...]

Wail

MamaBren

It has been two weeks and two days since Tom passed away. I can't believe it. I still feel so numb. However, there have been times when this raw, seithing feeling surfaces on my heart that is absolutely unbearable. It brings me to my knees. All I can do is cry out to God to comfort my broken heart. I can feel God's hand upon me and I know He hears me, but I still have to wait for the healing. This is when I rest in His care and be still. I hear my wail of dispair and almost think it isn& [...]