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Grieving In Peace
on the floor beneath a table
or outside stretched
upon the ground.
But, well-intentioned friends
come with pleas for me
to see a counselor and
eat dinner at their homes.
Begging I do something,
anything,
not understanding I am tired
and need to be inactive.
I want to sink beneath the tables,
lie in the dirt, drink until morning,
and grieve until the loss evolves
slowly into a timid strength.
Alcohol that is not usually kept in the house
because I will impulsively drink every drop,
now whispers greetings for me to enter
those dangerous zones of long lost spirits.
And friends will call
and display horror, disgust
when asking, “Have you been drinking?”
Powerless, they sigh, “Oh no.”
Never understanding how that despair
and wine are so painfully short-lived,
nor how comforting it is to let my tears fall
while driving along that hard paved road.
About the author: Diane lives in rural Arkansas with her nine-year-old daughter and two dogs. She teaches writing at the University of Arkansas-Monticello. Diane has a memoir coming out from Red Hen Press. E-mail: diane@seark.net
Copyright © 2001 by Diane Payne. All rights reserved.
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Grieving In Peace

In her debut memoir, Aundria Sheppard Morgan searches for purpose in a life she doesn’t want, revisits the strained relationship with her mother, and questions God, who allows unrelenting adversity as she faces the loss of her first love and husband James. A voice that is at once eloquent and honest cuts to the core, stripping away masks, and revealing raw emotions. In Cross My Heart and Hope to Die ~ A Memoir we dip into Morgan’s soul through poetic vignettes that lead each chapter. With unflinching candor she tells their love story. Hope and tragedy intertwine as James wrestles with guilt over killing his brother, his ten years in New York prisons, and his desire to rise above his past. Loving James helps Aundria set aside a lifetime of anger and embrace her mother. Beautifully written, it dares us to “call it what it is” so true healing can begin.


