Loss Of My Mother

by Vicki Asaro

Dear Mom,

It’s been almost a year since I’ve heard your comforting voice and seen your beautiful face. I long so much to feel your arms around me in only a hug that a mother can give. I want all this so much.

You were taken away from us much too soon; I was not ready, and I know you were not either.

Oh Mommy, I am so sorry this has happened to you. As much as I hurt from losing you, I hurt even more that you had to go through this and that you suffered so much pain and fought so hard just to die anyway.

I know you were scared. I could see it in your eyes, especially those last few minutes. I was also scared with you and for you.

Where are you now?

Can you hear me?

Can you see me?

Is it beautiful where you are?

I need so much to know that you’re OK. You were so scared when you left us. Saying “No,” you didn’t want to go. You fought so hard.

I hope it’s nice where you are. I hope that you’re happy and not scared anymore. I hope that your pain is gone. I hope you can hear me when I tell you how much I love you and miss you every night. I hope you can give me some guidance and strength to get me through this and to know just what to do.

Oh, how I wish you were here. I need you so much right now…Are you really with me?

Loving you and missing you deeply,
Your youngest daughter,
Vicki